samedi 26 février 2011
when i had time i did a few pages of art journal, it took me also some time for picture them, even more for post them, here i am being trap into stress life!
now i am foccus on work and my only left time is for yoga, méditation, swimming or tlaking a walk with dogs, no art journaling and i miss it a lot, really need to find time for it! i know, i can make it, may be by publish i will be a little motivate...
today i did a collage for the next kazkidanse event, when it will be dry i will picture it
here is some art journaling pages...3 doubles pages from Bali, one double page with the dry flower from mamie's funerals... in memory for her
jeudi 24 février 2011
it is a few days i am reading about mindfullness meditation, about being here, just here, about make some time in any day.
to go slower, to have a better life
so i try but stress is on my head!
i did have a sandwish picnic for lunch at the beach, and save 20 minutes for swim
then stick on computer like if it was real life
this is a goal, be far from phone or computer as much as possible
i also took a walk and 20 mn meditation
i am on the way,in 5 years i wil be ready hahahhahhahahhah
no i mean it, i have to go slower
here is a picture of my house again...and of the cat, our family's cat called DD
mercredi 23 février 2011
as jaimie asked this wenesday : what do i wish for my home ?
for my home, i wish not more than what we already have! because, i feel my home very lucky and lots of love in my home, my home is full of light and smiles, from all of us, always open!
i do love my home
mardi 22 février 2011
lundi 21 février 2011
it is a strange feeling to be running, not on the road but after time; especially when it seems that it will be for one year.may be it is because i worked on week end!
i mean, i don't see when i will have this sensation to be abble to rest, only rest and be free to do painting, it is " years" since i have a few minutes to draw!!!
here i am complaining so selfish because we can all have time for do something it is just a question of organise! and i will organise better for me to " art " better
about meditation, i can see i am growing, i mean in real life, even if it is hard to handdle because i have to face it, i am not so " good" there is dark in my daily life and i see it! well to become better is a hard road and i am happy to be on this road
i have to face it, when we do the work " the little red dress" i get stress and it does affect my daily life, i am awfull with my relatives and very impatient, so far from yoga so, i have to admit that i need to become much more better with yoga in daily life, be more genttle with me for be genttke with others
i add on this post a draw sed for make a bookmark by a friend : fred boulon; it is part of the red dress project, to use draw and collages or picture from people for make bookmarks! i love this interactive part it is great to receive some art each time
vendredi 18 février 2011
yesterday the little red dress performance went ok, i will say ok because the place were we performed was hard.
and i was tense, edith was tense...
what are we expecting from our art work ? somedays i find it difficult because, even if you dont' create for others, you are still sensitive when others watch it.
each time, for the little red dress piece, it is so tense. because how can we be relax with this subject ?
i am gratefull for my team to be so present with this work
so happy to not be alone with it
jeudi 17 février 2011
today Edith adn i went for workshops in highschool with our work about child abuse " the little red dress"
it was a 2 hours class, very rich to talk about or with teenagers, edith did an extract of the piece and they were very touch by the work.
and this is just great to see that we can have a link with the audience with this hard piece
we will perform for 2 days, tomorow and saturday, i am very stress each time we have to perform this work
as usual i did not sleep last night
but this morning i was happy to find so much answers from my yesterday's post
thanks for all of you
this is a draw i did for the work last year
and a link about the work
mercredi 16 février 2011
as jaimie asked today i will try to answer
What aspect of your personality do you wish to express more of?
because my days was a bit strange and rich, because my 2 daugthers told me that i was too much stress i learned one thing
i don't know how to express my love enough, show tender and soft and caddle
may be it iw because of my past, as an abused child, i don't really know what to do for show my love after a conflit or when there is tension
today i learned and i have to thanks my daugthers, they teached me how to say " i am not super woman and i can say i need to be caddle"
so my wish is to express more caddle and tender, love and softness
picture from bali... last trip
mardi 15 février 2011
i am glad to have yoga in my life because some days are driving me nuts
happy to have a deep root now with yoga because i felt like running between each class, each time. may be i am stress because the week is so busy, because i don't really find enough time for art.
the other day i wrote this..; in french sorry
and went back to my art journaling! so good to have this tool as well
without yoga, without art, would i be a dangerous sick persone ?
here is my french poetry
Droit devant soi
C’est dans mes choix que tout a changé.c’est dans la foi que j’ai pu aimer,
avec ma croix que j’ai choisi d’avancer.
Aimer et pardonner.
Aimer , éclairer
Aimer et libérer.
Dehors , dedans.
Sans négation, j’ai pu me pardonner, croire en moi, avec ma foi,
En marchant avec ma croix ;
Pour me rappeler qu’il est possible de changer ,quand on apprend
Qu’il est plausible d’avancer, avec le temps.
Aimer sans batailles ni coups,
Sans pagailles ni couts
Sans mentir du tout.
Aimer à regarder droit dedans soi
Droit devant toi.
Parce que je t’aime depuis que tu es en moi.
here is a computer collage that a yoga student and friend send to me, thanks to valérie gruber, an artist so nice
samedi 12 février 2011
yesterday i went to a concert in my town, i was working as big help at the bar, selling beers and champagne!!! when they asked me, i felt like i should say no, and just before going, when i was ready and dressed i felt like calling and say : i am sick
but i went and it was ok, yes! idid it : i spend a big evening whith hundreds people without smoking!! yohou! i was affraid of this! but after 45 days without smoking, i faced it and i ma happy because i was fine there and very punchy
the concert was great and i had a great evening, the bnd 340ML was very good and the dj before psycorigid ( his dj 's name).
i add a picture of me with a funny uggly pyjamas but , here i am , smiling at home
vendredi 11 février 2011
since i came back from funerals, i am very slow and absolutly not creative. nothing is coming out from my head or from my fingers, not a color, no words
i am here only working and feel like running after time
only thing i keep is yoga and meditation!!! argh, i have to dive back into art before i get crasy
i took a picture of nenuphar's flower at home
may be i should stay upside down like the balinese's statue
may be it will " art me up"
mercredi 9 février 2011
mardi 8 février 2011
it was a very sad time to see mamie's funerals but , in the same time, it was full of grace and so many people came, young and old, all together. the church was full and the prayer was good.
since she left, it is very sad to see papy alone, he is so old and almost blind...
today i go back to my home, my island, before taking the flight, i will take a walk to the country side.i feel like coming back here and live here again. hope it will happen soon
i took some of the virgo of mamie, she beleived so much into the mother of jesus and sainte thérèse, she had some pictures, some icones... i did take some to bring back home, for my daughters. and some for me to pray them before yoga, with my littles ganesh...
i loved mamie so much, i will miss her so much
i add some pictures of miribel, i took the pictures in october
mardi 1 février 2011
i wake up very early today but it was hard to foccus on my yoga, monkey mind going back to Mamie all the time, to memories.
the death of a close and love personn brings you back in your own personnal life. remember her, when i met her, i was young so young, when i met my husband i was into such a deep sad part of my life, this side part did hurt me so many years, like scarf, like burn, like red words made of blood and pain.
the red pain from what bad people can do to children. when i met Mamie, she loved me the way i was, she accepted me and keep loving me when i was becoming what i am now. they are in very good family, with open mind and heart, with space for freedom and " libre expression" which was not possible for me in my parent's house at this time.
so my day was like retrospective, introspection, in...
i did not start to pack and funny things are coming to the mind, like what should i wear for funerals ? so strange to think of this.
this morning i tried to meditate after my small practice ( not that small, 55 minutes...°) but my lind was even more hard to made a foccus
the road for be better is so long...
i want to work more! for be stronger, for love more, for love real
in memory of Mamie, i went on my computer where the storage's picture said flower and i choose 3 blindly... she loved flowers